Time: A Struggle to Save Myself

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A schedule can pull tight and hard on one’s soul.

Time becomes an enemy.

Spouse. Children. Work. Clothes. Meals. Chores. Church. Friends. Facebook. Bills. Appointments.

Busyness takes everything. And leaves no prisoners.

On to the next thing. And the next. And the next. And the next.

Silence and being left alone begins to sound like heaven…

The Therapist says rest.
The Doctor says meds.
The Spouse just frowns.

Is this what life is supposed to be like?

Maybe if I could just say no.
Maybe if I could just do it right.
Maybe if I were enough.

Stop.

Literally, that is the answer.

Because stopping brings the power to see.

Seeing that saying no isn’t the problem, it’s saying yes. We’ve forgotten to say yes to putting ourselves on the schedule. Time for ourselves to get away, breathe air, and stop. Jesus Christ did it. He is our greatest example of love, life, and fullness, so I’m pretty certain we should emulate that “come away by yourself and rest” thing.

When we are finally able to stop, we can see that we were never enough in the first place. Getting it right and perfect belonged to one person. Jesus. Savior of the world. Maybe you feel like you’re saving the world. The sooner you realize that’s God’s job, and your job is just to show up and love, the better. Being a savior isn’t just exhausting, it’s impossible. Your love is enough. What you bring to those around you is you. You don’t need to do it like Jimmy or Jaynie, just do it like you. Be human.

Your love is enough.

The Bible likens us to sheep. My Pastor, Robert Morris, takes it one step farther and reminds us “Sheep aren’t burden-bearing animals.” This truth is growing each day we live. Everything gets heavier as we try to carry it alone.

Someone I love deeply was stressing over a day’s load and how they would get through. I lovingly put a hand on their arm, looked them in the eyes, and said, “Repeat after me.” They nod. I smiled and said, “Baaaaaa.”

Our Shepherd helps us with the heavy stuff in return for us trusting Him.

Psalm 23
1 A psalm of David.
Adonai is my shepherd, I shall not want.
2 He makes me lie down in green pastures.
He leads me beside still waters.
3 He restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness
for His Name’s sake.
4 Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil, for You are with me:
Your rod and Your staff comfort me.
5 You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies.
You have anointed my head with oil, my cup overflows.
6 Surely goodness and mercy will follow me all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the House of Adonai forever.*

 

Trust Him.

 

 

 

 

 

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||  *Tree of Life Version (TLV) Tree of Life (TLV) Translation of the Bible. Copyright © 2015 by The Messianic Jewish Family Bible Society.  ||
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