The Song That Summed Up 2016

A friend of mine posted this question to his friends on Facebook: If you had to choose one song that summed up your past year, what would it be?

I answered him with a request to blog over this. Last year’s song for me needed exploration. Needed to be touched. Held. Caressed. Bounced off a rock and see if it breaks.

He said yes, so this is me doing the above.

Last year was a lot of feels for me.

Migraines. Darkness. Alone in pain. Prayer. Crying out in desperation. Joy. Love. Seeing God in a new way. Fear. Pushing back the fear. Words. Scrubbing. Dancing. And drinking water. Oh, so much water.

Last year hurt. But last year was Yeshua holding out His hand to me.

This Christian girl realized she wasn’t so Christian.

The explanations lie in the truth of grace.
The truth of works being meaningless.
The truth of law fulfilled by one man: Jesus. Yeshua in Hebrew.

The grace opened my eyes.

I have been trying to earn love ever since I was a child. Trying to earn acceptance. Trying to work my way into God’s good graces. Trying to convince God my life had a purpose. Trying to convince myself I had a purpose…

2016 was Him. Saving. Me. From. Me.

My Husband and I were in the audience when this sermon was preached. My Husband and I simultaneously responded and raced to the front of the church from the balcony. We rededicated our lives to Christ because we finally got it.

Grace isn’t us. Grace isn’t me.

Grace is a free gift.

We were re-baptised in the following months.

These pictures was captured by our friend Denise, and it shows exactly how it felt.

Going from “I’m my source” and “I’ll earn my way to You” to “Adonai is the source” and “I receive the free gift You give.”

It was around this time that Jesus Christ healed me of the migraines that had been a regular part of life for 10 years. Long years. But no more. He came to me and showed me He is love, and He loves me.

The best part of learning His love?

Is learning He will give it to anyone who comes to Him.

2016’s Song…

“Stars” by Skillet (music video below)

You spoke a word and life began
Told oceans where to start and where to end
You set in motion time and space
But still you come and you call to me by name
Still you come and you call to me by name

If you can hold the stars in place
You can hold my heart the same
Whenever I fall away
Whenever I start to break
So here I am, lifting up my heart
To the one who holds the stars

The deepest depths, the darkest nights
Can’t separate, can’t keep me from your sight
I get so lost, forget my way
But still you love and you don’t forget my name

If you can hold the stars in place
You can hold my heart the same
Whenever I fall away
Whenever I start to break
So here I am, lifting up my heart
If you can calm the raging sea
You can calm the storm in me
You’re never too far away
You never show up too late
So here I am, lifting up my heart
To the one who holds the stars

Your love has called my name
What do I have to fear?
What do I have to fear?
Your love has called my name
What do I have to fear?
What do I have to fear?

If you can hold the stars in place
You can hold my heart the same
Whenever I fall away
Whenever I start to break
So here I am, lifting up my heart
(Lifting up my heart)
If you can calm the raging sea
You can calm the storm in me
You’re never too far away
You never show up too late
So here I am, lifting up my heart
To the one who holds the stars

You’re the one who holds the stars

This song brings me to the truth of last year and all the years to come:

One that holds stars is holding my heart.

A great mystery.

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