The Process


The emotional status of my world is MIA. I’m not sure where it went.

All I know is that I’m here, writing this in bed, after a long day of being in bed, and thinking thoughts.

Migraine meds do that to a girl.

But so does knowing Adonai is up to stuff.

And He is.

My life went from a struggle day to day, to a prayerful, trusting, surrendering, who-am-I-? place.

I could blame the 40 days of prayer that our church is participating in. But that’s not it.

I could blame the 2-year mark of our marriage that looms close, as many walls have fallen, and now I feel more assured and less “this is what a wife looks like”… however, that in itself cannot be it either.

I could blame my life, and the fact that the migraines are still here, even though I’ve rebuked, fasted, begged for them to be gone. No. That lot isn’t powerful enough for this.

The significance of the spiritual realm, that which is unseen, begs for my attention every moment of every day. I am sure this is not a mistake, and God Himself is after me.

My life, my thoughts, my plans, my inabilities and my abilities are being circumvented in Him, who He is, and who He made me to be and become.

The process is delightful.


Reminiscing: Gundam Wing

Am I getting old? Or is it just the dance of time around me?

Perhaps both.

What I can do but embrace it?

Today, I am reminiscing my all-time most-favorite anime:

Gundam Wing


PREMISE:  A war for power sees the dispatch of 5 gundam pilots to earth to fight for the colonies they represent. They discover their ultimate values by being thrown against their raw limits, and, in the process, save everyone, including those who betrayed them.

LIFE PLACEMENT:  I discovered this anime thanks to Toonami (Cartoon Network’s US introduction to Japanese anime) while in high school. But I only saw a handful of episodes since my family didn’t have cable. I ate up music videos that could tell me the story on the newish website YouTube.

I put together enough about the story to tide me over until college, where an acquaintance offered to let me borrow his Gundam Wing DVD set. (Thank you, David!!!) THEN, the true binge began and I watched the entire series in less than a month. (2004)

gw suits

FAVORITE OVER-ARCHING FEATURES:  I love a good space story. This anime won me over at the words “space colony” in the opening narration. The fact that this space story features 15 and 16 yr olds as main characters amid a backdrop of warring adults makes it even more winsome. The main theme is “fight for what you believe in.”


MY UNFAVORITE THINGS:  To get how people feel in the middle of war, they have to talk a lot. A. lot. A lot. Sometimes when I go through this series, I ache to jump ahead to the next point in the story with one of the gundam pilots. However, the long moments of talking/arguing make the action that much sweeter and the end of the petty power-seekers so full of righteous justice. I mean, because you listened to them drone on and on about their goals… Ugh.


MEANT TO ME:  As a teenager, I went through bouts of depression and internal hurt that left me needing someone, some thing, to be hurt and sad with me. Gundam Wing was a direct parallel for me. Sad things happened in the series, but they gave way to huge moments where hope would spring up. I felt the hope as my own.

Just as Heero, Trowa, and the other guys would hide in plain sight, I identified with that, too. I was nothing special at school, but I dreamed of the day I might be myself and be accepted for it.

The good news is I suffered a “wake-up call” my senior year at college. I embraced who Adonai created me to be soon after. Yay!


Now, it’s been years since I’ve watched the whole series, but its impact on my life has been vast. Even Husband has been curious about this show that infiltrates discussion every once in awhile. I’m excited to be able to introduce the show to him in the coming weeks. 😀

Nowadays, I think my past is forgotten in the beauty of a well-made series. The music, the dialog, the characters, make for a good backdrop for self-reflection. Doesn’t everyone wonder what type of person they’d become if suddenly in a war they can’t escape?

Here’s to the good guys.

And here’s to the Japanese, who loved Gundam Wing enough to build their own gundam. 🙂


Character List Creation for Novels


The leadership I sit under in my Critique Group knows a thing or two.

Recently, the concept of naming was discussed. And further, the idea of book character names being different.

My mentors suggested to the group newbies that we create a name file. And, in it, record each and every name we use and in what books. That way, readers who follow us won’t be confused.

I did this today, creating the first Word document file of all my characters’ names. It wasn’t an enormous list, but it was large enough to show me this is an important concept.

Often when I name a novel character, I’m going with

    •  Name Meaning
    •  Sound
    •  Look

Now, I will add a fourth item:

  • Beginning Letter

Once my list was compiled and alphabetized, I could see plainly that I had similar names in the A’s, S’, and D’s. I need to work on that before these are published. 🙂

This could work for any creative process that needs to not duplicate names or words.